THE WORLD OF EMO KING!!

feeling so low!!!

2011-01-04T16:49:00.005+08:00

haiz.. donno why do i feel so low now a days.. i just don feel like doing anything at all.. issit because i am missing u again?? where are u?? i really do miss u.. are u thinking of mi like i do?? school is starting soon 6 more days to school.. wad a boring holiday!! final sem liao.. i must really do well to get into poly.. no more joking and more working liao.. i mean working hard on my studies.. so jia you bernard lee ming kai!! jiayou jiayou jiayou!!

I HATE MY FAMILY!!!

2010-10-25T20:47:00.002+08:00

I HATE MY LIFE!!! I HATE MY FAMILY!!! I JUST WISH I AM NOT BORN IN THIS WORLD!!! FML!!! FAMILY IS JUST ALL BULLSHIT TO MI.. HOME MEANS NOTHING TO MI.. ITS JUST A PLACE TO SLEEP.. TO MI ITS NOT CALL HOME.. ITS CALLED "HOTEL".. ONE DAY I WILL JUST LEAVE AND NV COME BACK.. SEEING MY FAMILY MAKES MI PUKE!!! MY SURNAME IS NOT LEE ANYMORE!!! I HATE HAVING THE SURNAME LEE..

a day with mixed feeling!!!

2010-08-19T03:46:00.003+08:00

its been so long after u left me.. but why i just can't let you go?? somethings is just so special with you around.. but days without you seems so colourless.. everything is just black and white.. i really hope you can be with me again.. but i know it will nv happen.. i also put on a smile infront of my friends and family.. its very hard to do it.. i just had to.. i don want to let them see my sad face.. but deep inside me i feel tat my heart is bleeding.. when will the bleeding stop?? i had to cry in the room alone.. i also donno how many tears i have shed for you?? i hope it will stop soon.. i know u are happy with wad u have now.. i also don want to disturb anything.. i will just be at a corner guarding after you.. you will always be my endless love!!

LONELY!!!

2010-07-29T23:53:00.003+08:00

donno why suddenly i miss u sooooooo much.. wad should i do to stop thinking again?? i noe you are happy now.. and i hope u will always be happy.. its mi, myself and i again..

我不是你想像总是扮演坚强
多想让你知道我也要个伴
放下讨厌武装像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上
我不是你想像的那麽勇敢

emo day..

2010-03-04T00:46:00.003+08:00

donno y today feel so sad.. maybe its bcoz i'm thinking of u again.. i really hope i can be wif u again.. but i noe this would not happen.. it will nv happen.. wad can i do to forget all this?? i hope i can get through this fast.. can someone show mi the light?? i feel tat i'm just living in the darkness.. where is my 命中注定?? when will the person appear?? will the person ever appear?? i'm losing all my hope and faith.. should i give up or just keep looking for my love?? haiz..

a new year!!

2010-01-09T04:10:00.003+08:00

wow.. so long nv blog liao.. i again a new year.. a new beginning.. but i donno will i ever have a new beginning.. its been 5 months plus since u left mi.. but i donno y i still keep thinking of u.. whenever i go to places that we have been before of listen to a song u like.. i will always think of u.. i hope u are fine and happy now.. no matter where u are or wad u do.. i will still be there for u if u ever need mi.. i also hope u will think of mi too.. good luck in all u do.. I MISS YOU!!!

swimming with zong yao!!

2009-10-31T15:20:00.007+08:00

got a call early in the morning its from zong yao.. asking mi have i woke up liao.. btw zong yao is my cousin.. OMG!! i'm so tired lar.. but i promise him tat i will bring him to the swimming pool today.. no choise have to get my lazy ass out of the bed liao.. spending the afternoon swimming wif zong yao is quite fun.. just let the photo do the talking ba..

cam whoring!! haha..

good water massage..

isn't he cute?? act only lar..

guess whose legs is this??

blocking the water from shooting out.. sound so wrong.. haha..

two most handsome guy on earth.. haha.. don jealous lar..

splash!!

spot zong yao..

little mermaid..

look like mi right?? haha.. but i more handsome lar..

snap shot..

i donno y he look so sad.. i did not scold him.. i just beat him only.. haha..

wow.. we seems to have a lot of fun in the pool.. i told him i will bring him go every saturday or sunday.. omg.. i shouldn't have say tat.. donno how long can i last.. waking up early in the morning on a saturday.. tats like living in hell.. haha.. but i will still do wad i have said.. see u next week zong yao.. and its time for some sleep now.. bye..

wish u Happy Birthday!!!

2009-10-27T17:45:00.003+08:00

all i can do is to wish u Happy Birthday.. i really donno wad else to say.. but hope u will enjoy ur special day.. may all ur wish come true.. take care.. don forget i'll always be there for u.. this birthday song is specially for u..

"Happy Birthday to U!!! Happy Birthday to U!!!

Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday......

Happy Birthday to My ONLY LOVE!!!"

this is all i can do for u.. have a great day..

F1!!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-27T00:53:00.007+08:00

people mountain people sea..

today went to see the F1 race with my biao yi.. so many ppl was in city hall lor.. most importantly is tat my biao yi make mi wait for 40 mins in the station.. i'm like a stupid ass standing there waiting for her.. omg!! girls are soooooooo slow..

smilezzz..

the ang mo behind so rude.. think its his home ar..

broommmmmmmmmm!!!

we left early to avoid the ending crowd.. but we have to walk a very long way to city hall mrt.. its like so stupid lor.. walk walk and more walk.. this F1 experience is so boring.. but at least i got to see the F1 car lar.. broommmmmmm!!!

想說!!!

2009-09-21T15:10:00.002+08:00

好想能守候在您的身旁
您温柔的眼光阻挡着忧伤
好想能停泊在您的海港
让船儿一直停放永不再出航
我在每一个漆黑夜晚独自忧伤
害怕这思念却无法伪装
我在每一个破晓黎明等待着天亮
等待您给我不灭的火光
心里有话想说心里的痛您懂
有太多太多的情感覆水难收
心里有话想说心里的痛您懂
我不愿埋怨的泪水已经没有尽头
好想能守候在您的身旁
您温柔的眼光阻挡着忧伤
好想能停泊在您的海港
让船儿一直停放永不再出航
我在每一个漆黑夜晚独自忧伤
害怕这思念却无法伪装
我在每一个破晓黎明等待着天亮
等待您给我不灭的火光
心里有话想说心里的痛您懂
有太多太多的情感覆水难收
心里有话想说心里的痛您懂
我不愿埋怨的泪水已经没有尽头
心里有话想说心里的痛您懂
有太多太多的情感覆水难收
心里有话想说心里的痛您懂
我不愿埋怨的泪水已经没有尽头

movie marathon!!!

2009-09-20T02:29:00.007+08:00

today i watch the movie "phobia 2" at 4.20pm.. hahahahahahaha.. its a horror movie.. but donnod y i cannot stop laughing.. my biao yi said i'm crazy.. but i really think its damn funny lar.. its not a bad show though.. i really love the last part.. it makes the whole cinema laugh.. i give the movie 3 out of 5 stars for funny.. 2 out of 5 stars for scary.. booooooooooo..

are u scared?? haha..

after the movie.. we went for dinner at carl's jr.. i wanted to eat subway de.. but she wan to eat carl's jr.. no choice lor.. she my biao yi ma.. have to respect elderly.. haha.. lol.. right anot BIAO YI!!! hello biao yi.. u are worldwide.. hehehe.. for ur info.. she is just 23.. one year older than mi.. ops..(she will kill mi if she see wad i write..)

cam whoring!!

my finished ice tea..(without ice)

dai yan ren of "Carl's Jr".. haha..

wad a mess!!

after the dinner.. we meet ser jing at ps for another movie.. we watch "the ugly truth" at 11.55pm.. its a really damn funny show this time.. its all abt relationship between man and woman.. its quite true wad they in the show.. but something makes mi very piss off.. its a NC 16 show.. but when we are entering the cinema.. the person ask for our IC.. but when i wanted to show him my IC he said.. "no no.. not urs.. just the two of them only.." WAD THE HELL!!! he just wan to check my biao yi and ser jing IC.. plssssssss.. i'm the youngest amongs them lar.. the person is just totally BLIND!!! ARGH!!! do i look tat old.. sob sob.. a part from this.. i give the movie 4 out of 5 stars..

the love guru..

overall today was a happy day.. i had so much fun watching movie.. thanks biao yi and ser jing for the accompany.. but i still feel sad abt wad the person said to mi.. i will nv forget him.. haha.. lol.. gtg.. ciao..

SICK!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-15T17:05:00.003+08:00

wa!!!!!!!!!! so sick today.. cannot even talk.. i hate the feeling of getting sick.. he i wish i can shout now.. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! went to see the doctor.. so expensive lor.. $39.60.. no choice.. have to go see.. mummy nagging liao.. haha.. cannot even talk to the doctor.. have to use write de.. having sore throat is like hell lor..

mask rider.. haha..

waiting......

the door of hell..

after seeing doctor.. i meet my biao yi for lunch.. a lot of things cannot eat.. sian.. hate it.. i only can eat porridge.. and wadever i eat also no taste de.. i wish can faster get well.. so i can get out from the hell.. jia you bernard..

disappointed!!!

2009-08-29T23:40:00.003+08:00

whenever my phone got a call or a sms.. i will always hope tat it would be u.. but it will not be.. it makes mi so disappointed.. i donno wad to say but just keep everything to myself.. i have to laugh and joke in front of my frens.. the feeling of having to hide ur sadness and not show it out is very difficult.. but i have to.. the bernard my frens know is happy go lucky.. joker.. funny.. just have to hide all my sadness and emo.. hate being alone at night.. it makes mi think of u.. nvm lar.. i know u are busy.. just take care.. hope u will be fine.. i'll be there for u everytime u need mi.. just let mi know..

i really wan to run to you!!!

2009-08-24T19:25:00.000+08:00

I know that when you look at me
There's so much that you just don't see
But if you would only take the time
I know in my heart you'd find
A girl who's scared sometimes
Who isn't always strong
Can't you see the hurt in me?
I feel so all alone
I wanna run to you (oooh)
I wanna run to you (oooh)
Won't you hold me in your arms
And keep me safe from harm
I wanna run to you (oooh)
But if I come to you (oooh)
Tell me, will you stay or will you run away
Each day, each day I play the role
Of someone always in control
But at night I come home and turn the key
There's nobody there, no one cares for me
What's the sense of trying hard to find your dreams
Without someone to share it with
Tell me what does it mean?
I wanna run to you (oooh)
I wanna run to you (oooh)
Won't you hold me in your arms
And keep me safe from harm
I wanna run to you (oooh)
But if I come to you (oooh)
Tell me, will you stay or will you run away
run away
I need you here
I need you here to wipe away my tears
To kiss away my fears
If you only knew how much...
I wanna run to you (oooh)
I wanna run to you (oooh)
Won't you hold me in your arms
And keep me safe from harm
I wanna run to you (oooh)
But if I come to you (oooh)
Tell me, will you stay or will you run away

am i irritating??

2009-08-09T02:01:00.003+08:00

i noe u are finding mi irritating liao.. its ok lar.. i know its all my fault.. i don blame u.. i just hope u will be happy.. if u found someone better just go for it.. don have to worry abt mi.. i'll be just fine.. but u must let mi know.. so i can be happy for u.. i will wish u all the best de.. being hurt is nth to mi liao.. i'm just use to it liao.. hope tat everything goes well for u.. jia you.. good luck.. and take care of urself.. health is more important.. i know tat i'm not a good guy.. i don treat u good enough.. maybe someone can do better than mi.. but no matter wad i will always love u..

how long can i do this??

2009-08-06T23:37:00.003+08:00

its so difficult to force yourself to laugh and smile in front of ur friends.. even thought u are feeling very down.. but i just cannot show it out.. i have to hide everything unhappy inside of mi.. i really donno how long can i do this.. everyone know mi as a happy person.. no one know how i really feel.. i feel so fake now.. haiz.. crying for mi now is no use liao.. no point crying.. it will not change anything.. i only can use work and school to numb myself now.. trying very hard not to think too much.. no matter wad.. i will not show my sad side to my friends and family.. i will not wan them to worry abt mi.. are u thinking of mi?? are u missing mi?? i donno if u do?? but i know i really do.. and its a lot.. haiz.. "Bernard Lee Ming Kai.. time will heals.. just take some time.. jia you.."

missing u!!!

2009-07-31T20:50:00.002+08:00

i really miss u so much.. but i donno u feel the same way as i do.. i only can hope tat u do.. i'm trying not to think so much.. we are totally not like before liao.. i noe and i understand.. i will not bother u de.. i will give u the freedom u wan.. i just wan u to be happy.. maybe u are not happy being with mi.. or maybe i did not treat u good enough.. its all my fault.. i shouldn't have be so sticky.. i should give u more space.. haiz.. things are not going well for mi.. my life really suck to the core liao.. i really hope u will be happy from now on.. take care..

????????????

2009-07-24T23:27:00.003+08:00

its been 5 days liao.. i nv got a single msg from u.. wad are u doing?? i miss u so much.. u must be really busy ba.. nvm lar.. no matter wad i just wan to let u know tat i love u.. hope to hear from u soon.. remember to take care of urself.. don work so hard.. must get more rest.. i donno y i miss u so so so much.. i can't stop thinking of u.. haha.. hope u are thinking of mi too.. haiz.. hugs..

.........

2009-07-19T11:49:00.005+08:00

after wad happen yesterday.. i felt tat i'm really stupid.. y must i be so "da fang"?? when i heard wad u said again.. i felt like my heart is bleeding.. its like being shot the second time.. i donno how many time can i take it before i goes down.. maybe u forgot abt everything le ba.. are we really meant to be together?? i don dare to tell u i'm sad, jealous and angry abt wad u did yesterday.. i don wan to spoil ur weekend.. hope u have enjoy urself.. i noe crying won't help but its just roll down like tat.. i also donno y.. haiz.. u take care of urself ok.. don worry abt mi.. i'll be just fine after a while..

a very meaningful birthday!!

2009-07-18T16:48:00.003+08:00

"happy birthday to me!!! happy birthday to me!!! happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!! happy birthday to me!!!" yeah!! today is my birthday.. instead of going out celebrate.. i stay at home and do my homework.. i also get some sleep and do some thinking.. i think its very nice to spent my birthday like tat.. alone.. free and easy.. no one disturb.. i also put my phone in silent mode and put it inside my drawer.. so no one can contact mi and i won't hear a single thing.. feeling so good now.. i can do wad i wan to do liao.. haha.. fun slacking time till 12 midnight.. enjoying every moment of it.. "jia you" bernard.. lol.. hahahahahahaha.. i'm loving it..

tomorrow is my birthday!!

2009-07-17T00:27:00.002+08:00

tomorrow is my birthday liao.. y didn't i feel any excitement at all?? Bernard Lee Ming Kai.. shouldn't u be looking forward to this day de ma?? than y u don feel excited at all.. haha.. i also donno y leh.. just don feel anything lor.. is tat wad i suppose to feel?? or issit the older u are the more u don wan to celebrate ur birthday.. haha.. maybe ba.. the only feeling i can feel now is tat i'm so old liao.. lol.. see how it goes tml ba.. most prob is stay at home and get more rest.. and also do some self thinking lor.. wad a good idea to spent my birthday.. don u think so?? haha..

birthday coming!!

2009-07-14T00:53:00.002+08:00

4 more days to my birthday.. seems like nth to mi lor.. haha.. not even a little excited.. lol.. will anyone remember my birthday?? some more i also donno wad to do on my birthday.. i think i should just stay at home ba.. boring.. lets sing myself a birthday song 1st ba.. "happy birthday to me.. happy birthday to me.. happy birthday to me.. happy birthday to me!!" haha.. so lame.. nth better to do ar Bernard Lee Ming Kai.. i only hope u can remember my birthday.. i don need any present.. i just need U!! hope u will be there..

fun time at IKEA!!

2009-07-09T04:20:00.009+08:00

on the 7th july.. mi and my classmates went IKEA after school for lunch.. we had alot of fun there.. took a lot of photos.. the picture says it all.. haha.. everyone was like so excited to go.. we took mrt to queenstown and change bus to IKEA..

went we reach there we starting to take photo.. all kind of stupid ideas came out of our mind.. haha..

we are waiting for azhan to go toilet before we go for lunch.. and we also took stupid photos while we are waiting..

than we went to the most famous IKEA restaurant for lunch.. the meatballs there is the best.. very nice.. soooooo good.. i love it very much.. i just can't get enough of it.. haha..

everyone had so much fun tat day.. i enjoy spenting time wif my classmates.. it will make our class bond stronger.. haha..

having fun at jurong point!!

2009-07-06T16:31:00.011+08:00

on the 5th July.. few of my classmate and mi went to jurong point and help out our teacher in a school event.. it was actually quite fun helping out.. we reach there around 8 plus.. yup.. i'm late.. sorry guys.. overslept.. haha.. when we reach.. we went to change into the t-shirt tat our teacher give us.. than we went for breakfast..

lindy eating like a pig.. haha!!

after breakfast we went back to set up our stuff for the event.. the thing started at around 9 plus..our booth is doing Batik Tjanting.. its a malay culture we learn in our life skills class..

we were messing around and having fun.. everyone was doing something to help out.. mi and lindy took turn to be the camera man.. we took a lot of stupid photo too..

we did some.. only some serious work too.. not only play lor.. each of us will do a part.. some of us will draw some will wax and the others will colour.. we always change here and there lar..

we also have to explain to the public abt wad we are doing.. and also get them to try out themselves too.. there is also a lot of little children wanting to try out.. their favourite part will be the colouring.. little kids like to colour..

we really have a lot of fun tat day.. its tiring but a fruitful thing to do.. seeing the public so interested in wad we are doing.. i felt tat wad i did was right.. letting the little ones noe more abt our Singapore culture is a good thing too.. EL0904V jia you.. hope to do more of this wif u guys.. there is more photos in my facebook.. go check it out..

nice voice!!

2009-07-04T03:56:00.003+08:00

today also do nth.. another boring day.. going to cut hair later.. too long liao.. plus school starting soon.. was watch some show and found out 周慧 just come out new album.. her voice is so clean and nice.. i like her voice.. those who are feeling sad and emo can listen to her songs.. it help u to heal ur wound.. her voice is so smoothing.. her songs also help mi go through many emo nights.. hope it can help u too.. enjoy this song.. its from her new album..

boring day!!

2009-07-03T18:50:00.003+08:00

haha.. 2 more day to the road show.. waste my time lar.. haha.. and its far from my house lor.. also donno go there do wad sia.. planning to do something today.. but donno can do wad?? lucky school reopening soon.. at least got something to do liao.. jia you bernard.. study hard and get ur GPA 4 point.. school here i come.. been listening to this song everyday.. his looks is so funny lar.. but his song is very unique and also not bad..

open happiness!!

2009-07-01T09:13:00.002+08:00

saw this video in my friend blog.. found its nice.. even though its a song written for coke cola.. but its so right.. a brand new day has begun.. lift mi up its a brand new day.. open up a little happiness today.. so i can be someone new.. lift mi up to a better way.. open up a smile on another face.. so i can feel something new.. its well written.. and the rhythm is fun and happy.. this is for all who is emo and sad now.. DON EMO!! GO FIND UR ELMO!! HAHAHA!! enjoy the song ba..

not the same as before..

2009-06-28T17:31:00.003+08:00

after the incident happen.. i can feel tat things has change.. its not the same as before.. i really donno wad i can do now.. i really hope tat u will still be the same like last time.. wad are u thinking now?? wad is on ur mind?? can u just let mi noe.. u give mi the feeling tat u don really care now.. wad can i do to make u love mi?? wad can i do to make u care?? can u just tell mi wad to do?? haiz.. i really love u alot.. but i can feel u don love mi as much like last time.. wad is happening?? now i only can pray tat it will be the same like last time.. this is all i can do.. sob sob..

wad is happening??

2009-06-27T00:38:00.004+08:00

i donno wad is happening now.. i just hope tat u can believe mi.. i will not let u go de.. i will not give up on u de.. u know when i saw the sms u send mi.. it really hurt mi alot.. my heart is like been ripe into two.. it just shattered into pieces.. i feel so so sad tat u will think this way.. maybe its my fault.. i don love u enough ba.. just wan to let u know tat u are my love.. don think tat u are not.. pls don think tat i will give up on u.. i will NEVER!!

not a good day for mi!!

2009-06-25T05:13:00.003+08:00

y is this happening to mi again?? i really donno wad to do to make u love mi.. i happen to noe something tat makes mi so so sad.. when i heard tat.. it really break my heart.. i donno wad to do now.. all i can do is cry.. i don dare to ask u.. who am i to u?? am i in ur heart?? sob sob.. i feel so stupid now.. i hope it will not happen to mi again.. i really do love u.. if u ever wan to leave.. i will still wish u all the best.. i will still be ur guardian angel no matter wad happen..

you will always be MY VALENTINE!!

2009-06-24T02:39:00.001+08:00

If there were no words, no way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears, no way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
You're all I need, my love, my valentine

All of my life
I have been waiting for all you give to me
You've opened my eyes, and shown me how to love unselfishly

I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
In my dreams I couldn't love you more
I will give you my heart until the end of time
You're all I need my love my valentine

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
Cause all I need is you my valentine
Oh, you're all I need my love my valentine

in love with you!!

2009-06-23T01:48:00.003+08:00

donno y.. i feel tat u are the one for mi.. hear u saying all those things to mi.. i felt very touch.. i have nv felt this way b4.. i noe tat u really do love mi.. and u really do care.. i can really feel tat now.. i cannot stop thinking of u.. and i miss u alot.. i wan nobody nobody but u.. i hope things will be fine between us.. and i hope this will carry on forever.. i noe it will be forever.. LOVE YOU ALWAYS MY DEAR!! i will always remember wad u told mi.. u're always in my heart.. i cannot imagine my world without u.. u're mine for the rest of my life.. muackz..

wad is on ur mind??

2009-06-14T23:40:00.004+08:00

everything seems so weird today.. u seems to have a lot of thing on ur mind.. but its just tat u don wan to tell mi.. wad is really on ur mind?? can u tell mi?? i really wan to know.. i wan to share ur everything.. no matter its sad things or happy things.. i just wan to noe.. even though i may not be in any help.. but u still can tell mi de.. don keep everything to urself.. just remember i'll always be there for u.. i will lend u my hearing ear.. just pour everything to mi.. can u do tat?? i noe u may not see all this.. but i really donno how to tell u.. so i just have to put it all here.. i hope u will see this.. haiz.. take care of urself.. remember there will always be the someone special by ur side..

wad are u doing now??

2009-06-09T20:33:00.003+08:00

today nv hear from u the whole day.. wad are u doing?? very busy ar?? haiz.. i keep thinking abt alot of things.. y after so long liao u still come back find mi?? do u really like mi?? am i in ur heart?? i cannot stop think lor.. u are always in my mind.. i hope u can be more open.. u don tell mi anything de.. i really wan to noe wad are u thinking.. wad is in ur mind?? i really like u alot lor.. i are always in my mind.. i cannot stop thinking of u.. hope to hear from u soon.. haiz..

when will u give mi the answer??

2009-06-04T01:30:00.000+08:00

haiz.. waiting for an answer is very painful.. i really donno wad u wan now.. u don wan to tell mi anything.. u say u miss mi.. like mi.. issit true?? i really donno.. i donno y i just can't stop thinking of u.. are u thinking of mi?? when will u give mi the answer?? all i need to know is tat do u love mi and who am i to u?? whenever i hear the song "bleeding love".. i will think of u.. think abt the time we are together.. we went shopping.. see movie and everything.. i don wan to think abt it anymore.. but no matter i will still wait for ur answer.. hope its the one i wanted.. take care.. muackz.. hugs..

138 days.. day 15 without you..

2009-05-24T22:57:00.003+08:00

haiz.. y do u have to msg mi abt him?? wad has it got to do wif mi if he nv reply ur msg.. do u noe i like u.. but i noe u don like mi.. wad to do.. love cannot be force.. i think i will just keep a distance ba.. tat is the best way.. haiz.. i will not meet u all for the time being.. take care.. have fun..

cam whoring in school today.. 134 days.. day 11 without you..

2009-05-20T23:08:00.020+08:00

haha..today in class was fun.. i'm cam whoring wif my classmates.. nth to do so we decide to use my webcam to take so me stupid photo.. its funny..

all this is normal..

two big heads..

rounded faces..

square faces..

look so slim..

so scary..

last but not least..

ONE EYE MONSTER!!

there is many more photo.. but very lazy to post.. having so much fun in school.. it makes mi feel young again.. haha.. thanks guys.. i really appreciate wad u all have done for mi.. thanks alot.. love u guys.. muackz..

132 days.. day 9 without you..

2009-05-18T21:10:00.002+08:00

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129 days.. day 6 without you..

2009-05-15T00:44:00.003+08:00

coming back home alone makes mi think of u again.. haiz.. i noe tat we can nv be frens again.. but i really hope we can.. i'm really sorry to hurt u.. i really don mean it.. i feel very stupid now.. for wad i did.. i shouldn't have do this.. its all my fault.. i think u will be happy without mi since u HATE mi so much.. i can tell u tat i can nv forget u de.. i noe u will not even remember mi at all.. but i just hope u will remember tat i'll always be there for u, care for u and love u no matter wad.. pls take care of urself when i'm gone.. i will be looking out for u when i'm above.. i will be ur guardian angel.. byee.. love u always..

128 days.. day 5 without you..

2009-05-14T00:14:00.001+08:00

after hearing wad u say.. its really like a knife piecing into my heart.. i'm bleeding very very badly inside.. i feel so so sad when u say u nv even love mi at all right in my face.. u said the person u wan is not mi.. its him.. my heart is like been riped apart.. i donno wad should i do.. y i'm i also so stupid.. y can't i find a person tat loves mi?? y am i always been cheated?? i really very tired le.. i don feel like living anymore.. its no point living in this world tat is so hurtful.. i really donno when will my wound heal and my heart stop bleeding?? only dead ppl will stop bleeding.. maybe i should really end my life ba.. haiz.. sob sob..

126 days.. day 3 without you..

2009-05-12T16:16:00.004+08:00

haiz.. y do i have to lie to myself saying i don mind and i can take it.. telling u tat i don mind letting u go its all a lie.. i just wan to let u be happy.. i wan u to go fight for ur happiness.. i'm very painful inside now.. i just don wan to show it out.. my heart is like been ripe apart.. y can't i just tell u how i feel.. telling u to treat as u donno mi at all is very painful.. i don wan u to forget mi.. i wan u to remember.. y must i be so "wei da" and let u go..? been crying every night since the day u left mi.. i don wan to but its just very automatic.. only here i can shower out all my feelings.. I WAN TO BE WIF U!! I DON WAN US TO BE APART!! I JUST CAN'T STOP THINKING ABT U!! PLS BE WIF MI AGAIN!! i noe i'm being a coward.. don dare to tell u all this.. all i dare to do is this.. i will remember u de.. and i will be waiting for u no matter wad.. I LOVE U!!

125 days.. day 2 without you..

2009-05-11T17:38:00.003+08:00

haiz.. i donno wad to do.. its like living in hell now for mi.. i really regret abt doing all this.. how i wish u can be wif mi again.. but i noe its not possible anymore.. i got no mood to do anything now.. in school at home.. nothing.. i just feel like lying down in my bed and don wake up.. so i can don think abt anything.. y do i have to do in this world.. i'm hopeless now.. i don wan to be alive.. how i wish i can just leave this place and not come back.. leave everything.. haiz.. 很爱很爱你!! sob sob..

124 days.. day 1 without you..

2009-05-10T23:04:00.004+08:00

today is the 1st day without u.. i'm feeling very sad.. but i noe u are suffering being wif mi.. someone has to take the 1st step.. so let mi be the bad guy ba.. this is not wad i wan also.. but its the best thing to do for the both of us.. u don have to worry tat u will hurt if u choose to be wif him.. i will still continue to count the days we are together.. but i'm trying to forget u.. i really hope u can be happy without mi.. wish u can be wif the person u really love.. take care of uself.. u will always be in my heart.. and i noe i won't be sad.. coz u nv ever love mi from the start.. its ok.. i'm really happy with the time we spent together.. just let mi be the one tat have all the pain ba.. good luck.. muackz..

123 days..

2009-05-09T21:23:00.002+08:00

going to play mahjong again.. haiz.. i ask u are u meeting mi later but u said donno.. maybe.. when he ask u to play mahjong.. u are ok.. haiz.. i donno wad to say liao.. i'm really sick and tired of saying all this.. but its all true.. he is more important than mi.. and u love him more than mi.. when will u eally love mi?? nvm lar.. i think its just wrong for us to start.. i'm the third party.. i'm just fated not to get love and be single my whole life ba.. i don think i can find anyone tat love mi.. i should really just give up.. sob sob..

119 days..

2009-05-05T15:51:00.003+08:00

haiz.. i'm on the edge of breaking down.. donno wad to think now.. everything seems so wrong.. wadever i do is not right.. u said tat the relationship will gets weaker if i always anyhow think.. but its already weak from the start.. i'm not in ur heart and ur heart don belong to mi at all.. someone else has taken up all the space.. there is no room left for mi.. can anyone tell mi wad should i do?? i really donno should i continue loving u, give up on u or just keep on escaping from the problem.. but no matter wad i do pls noe tat u are always in my heart.. its ok if i'm not in ur heart.. and i will love u always.. take care..

113 days..

2009-04-29T19:29:00.003+08:00

haiz.. everyone say tat i'm the emo king.. ask mi don emo liao.. but how to not emo.. so much things had happen to mi.. wad can i do?? i'm making everyone so miserable.. maybe everyone will be happier when i'm gone.. i should might as well be gone lor.. no one will be sad de lar.. no one will ever care lor.. i'm just the BIGGEST LOSER in the whole world.. wad should i do now?? i think i should just leave this world for good.. u don even care if i'm still around anot.. i noe tat.. and i understand tat ur heart is occupied by someone else le.. there is no more space left for mi.. pls don be guilt abt anything.. its all my problem.. u got nth to do wif it.. by saying this i think it will make u much better ba.. take care.. good bye.. muackz..

110 days..

2009-04-26T22:27:00.003+08:00

haiz.. when things happen.. its really not something u can control.. i'm not in ur heart at all.. its just been occupied by another person liao.. but its not mi.. i think he will be in there forever ba.. who i'm i to u?? i really donno.. i think i should just give up ba.. there is nth i can do lor.. i noe u will choose him de.. no point doing anything now lor.. forget it lar.. 我恨我爱你!! 你会找到更好的!! hope u will be with the one u really love.. i noe he is more important than mi.. i really think he is very lucky to have u loving him like no other.. i hope i can have someone tat can love mi like tat.. but i noe the person will not be u.. haiz..

105 days..

2009-04-21T23:10:00.002+08:00

OMG!! at last i cried.. i really donno how u feel now.. do u have any feelings for mi?? do u even feel anything?? do u noe i'm complaining to u.. i'm not joking.. i just don wan to show it in front of u.. i don wan to quarrel wif u again.. i'm really very tired.. should i really give up?? its the 3rd time liao.. and its going to be the 4th and 5th time and so on.. and u said will make up for mi.. but u didn't.. haiz.. u are not even doing anything.. forget it lar.. i really don wan to think abt it.. u don show any "fan ying" when i tell u anything.. sometime i just wan u to "hong" mi.. but u didn't.. u don even notice.. haiz.. 我恨我爱你!!

100 days..

2009-04-16T23:06:00.002+08:00

today is the 100th days le.. i was very happy coz i meet u and spent the day wif u.. its a boring day in school lar.. but when i meet u its all different liao.. we when to suntec to buy my contact lens.. after tat we went to raffles place to buy my bag.. i donno y just being wif u no matter where we go i'm very very happy liao.. i hope we can be like this forever and ever.. i noe u are still waiting for him.. but wad can i do?? i cannot do anything lar.. the only thing i can do is also wait lor.. lets wait together ba.. but i hope wad i'm doing is worth it and will have "jie guo".. love u always.. muackz..

96 days..

2009-04-12T23:05:00.002+08:00

haiz.. tml start school liao.. so scared.. donno how will it be lor.. i noe tat u are angry wif mi.. i should believe u de.. but i donno y i'm like tat.. i hope u can understand.. but no matter wad happen i will still love u wif all my heart.. u noe tat.. i noe wad should i do le.. u take care of urself hor.. i will miss u de.. muackz..

95 days..

2009-04-11T02:07:00.004+08:00

haiz.. i spent my friday sleeping all the way again lor.. really donno wad to do lor.. still got 2 more days before school start.. i went to cut hair yesterday afternoon.. so not use to it lor.. but not bad lar.. quite nice.. i saw somethings u write abt u and him.. and i really felt very touch.. how i wish u are writing abt mi.. but too bad its not.. and it also answered all the question i had in my mind.. now i noe.. i'm just not the one for u.. and i'm just not the one u wan to be wif also.. it can nv be mi lor.. i can feel ur love for him is so strong.. i noe u will love him till the last breath of ur life and nobody can replace him in ur heart.. i really noe wad to do le.. muackz.. love ya..

94 days..

2009-04-10T03:25:00.002+08:00

i was sleeping since yesterday 5pm in the afternoon till today 2am in the morning.. haha.. pig right.. u say u playing mj wif ur frens.. wif ur ex ar?? lol.. going to cut my hair later.. still got 3 more days start school liao.. haiz.. alittle scared lar.. donno can fit in anot?? also donno can cope wif my studies?? my nightmare is starting soon.. i don think we will be meet this week lar.. i noe u are not in the mood.. i also don wan to fan u.. don worry.. i will not sms u and disturb u lar.. i will just let u have ur time.. u take of urself hor.. don tired urself up.. take care of ur health too.. love ya.. muackz.. hugs..

91 days..

2009-04-07T11:06:00.004+08:00

today is the day.. but y i'm not a little excited at all.. maybe its a custom not spending it wif u be.. u say to enjoy this day.. but without u how to enjoy.. u also said there will be many more of it ahead.. but will it all end up like this.. spending it alone.. i think should be ba.. haiz.. went to east coast alone again.. keep walking and walking.. donno where am i walking to?? now i know walking alone on the streets is a very boring and sad thing.. had my dinner at parkway.. but i got no appetite to eat.. just eat a few mouth only.. cannot even finish lar.. so sad.. another lonely day.. i really donno should i look forward to this day anymore?? u also enjoy ur day lar.. don have to worry abt mi de.. i'll be fine being alone.. love ya.. muackz..

90 days..

2009-04-06T01:10:00.003+08:00

u told mi tat u will always have a little surprise every 3 months for ur ex.. and u said u will do the same for mi too.. but i think u have forgotten all abt it le ba.. nvm lar.. i think its not important ba.. haiz.. i really envy him lar.. got someone like u tat love him so much.. not like mi.. no one love no one wan also.. really 同人不同命.. how i hope i can be him.. have ur love.. but i noe it will not happen.. i'm not him.. and i will nv be.. he is really a lucky guy lor.. haiz haiz haiz.. it really hurts mi alot when i'm thinking abt the things u have been through wif him.. i donno should i carryon anot?? i'm i doing the right thing here?? 神啊!! 救救我吧!!

88 days..

2009-04-04T07:43:00.003+08:00

yesterday u said u are meeting ur parents for dinner.. and will sms mi later.. but i nv leh.. so sad.. u don even remember.. u have forgotten all abt mi liao.. have too much fun?? haha.. i really donno should i believe u anot?? i went to east coast alone yesterday.. its like so windy and so peaceful there.. listening to the music being played by the sea.. really makes u so calm.. but seeing so many couple there makes u so sad.. lol.. did u meet ur parents for dinner or u are wif ur ex?? i don know.. even if u are wif ur ex i won't say anything.. i just wan to know the truth.. i don wan u to lie to mi.. don worry.. i will not stop u from getting back together wif ur ex de lor..but no matter wad happen i will be right here waiting for u.. love ya.. muackz..

85 days..

2009-04-01T03:44:00.003+08:00

i spent alot of time think abt alot of things.. things tat are stupid maybe.. u said i nv reply ur msn or sms u.. is not i nv reply u or sms u.. is i don dare to.. i scared u will find mi very irriating.. now even to msn or sms u needs courage to do so.. i really very very scared.. haiz.. y am i be coming like tat.. its like so not mi lor.. maybe its becoz i love u too much ba.. i don think u will worry if u cannot find mi.. maybe u won't feel sad or anything if i nv reply ur msn or i nv sms u ba.. am i right?? i hope not.. but it seems to be the case.. nvm lar Bernard Lee Ming Kai.. remember u are fated to be all alone.. u are gonna be single all ur life lar.. sad for wad?? must get use to it le.. don be sad.. sob sob..

84 days..

2009-03-31T07:05:00.003+08:00

haiz.. sometime i can feel tat u care.. but sometime u give mi the feeling tat u don really care.. once hot once cold.. i donno i can take it anot?? sometime i really wanted to ask u.. am i in ur heart?? but i just don have the guts to say it out.. i have to keep everything to myself.. i don wan to stress u up.. so i nv say.. i noe u will read my blog.. but u don have to care de.. i'm just finding some channel to let it out.. i donno how to tell u anything.. maybe is i don dare.. i scared u will get angry.. i'm i doing the right thing now?? i don even noe it myself.. i hate this feeling.. if u happen to read this.. just don care abt it.. maybe i'm fated to be lonely.. maybe my life is all lonely.. i just have to spent the rest of my life alone ba.. i don noe?? i only noe now my life is all black and white.. there is no colour at all.. are u the colour of my life?? can u?? will u?? i only can wish tat u are.. but i noe its very very hard for it to happen.. muackz..

83 days..

2009-03-30T11:54:00.003+08:00

things are not getting any better between us.. but i must say i can feel tat u have put in alot of effort.. i can feel it le.. i asked u do u find mi irriating.. u said no and ask mi no to worry.. but i just feel tat sometime there is things in u mind tat i donno.. and u don feel like talking to mi.. the more u ask mi not to worry.. the more i'm worried lar.. u are again having something on on the day tat belong to us.. haiz.. i noe its not ur fault.. i don blame u.. its all fate.. this has become a tradition for us.. i'm already use to it le.. last time i really hope tat day will come very fast every month.. but now i don really think it matters anymore.. maybe its not important ba.. or maybe to u its nothing ba.. after so much things happen to us.. i start to ask myself.. am i really the one for u or the one u wan?? or is there another person tat u wan and is better for u?? i really donno.. sometime i really feel like crying.. but there is just no tears coming out.. i think my tears have dried up.. muackz..

82 days..

2009-03-29T18:10:00.003+08:00

haiz.. i really donno y i did wad i did yesterday.. maybe i making chances for the both of u.. haha.. issit "wei da" or issit stupid leh..? i really donno.. maybe i'm jealous or maybe i don wan to see anything.. so confuse now.. wad should i do.. i do love u alot.. but i cannot get ur love.. so wad's the point?? can someone help mi sort it out man.. i scared i will go crazy soon.. but i noe something.. i really don mind u being wif him.. u and him is pei de.. not like mi.. i'm really not good enough for u.. haha.. but no matter wad happen i will still be there for u.. i will still love u the same.. muackz..

80 days..

2009-03-27T21:37:00.002+08:00

wow.. 80 days liao.. so sian.. u having family dinner.. cannot meet mi go out.. so i have to ask my frens to play mahjong lor.. haha.. wad to do.. u tooooooo busy ma.. lol.. my legs is so cramp no lar.. running and swimming is really SHAG!! but i will continue de.. i will not give up de.. lol.. u confirm say i pig lor.. but i still love ya.. muackz.. hugs..

76 days..

2009-03-23T21:07:00.004+08:00

yeah.. the number is growing bigger.. 76 days le.. just finish running lor.. very very the shag lor.. haha.. i must slim down.. i noe i can do it.. hope u will like it lar.. i noe i'm not good enough for u now.. but i will try my best.. its less than a month before i start school.. so scary.. so long nv go back school le.. a bit weird weird de.. i seems to be the oldest in my class lar.. i feel so old now lar.. lol.. hope i can survive in school.. i cannot do nth now.. i just have to pray very very hard lor.. haha.. u take care of urself hor.. be careful.. hope i can see u on saturday.. love ya.. muackz..

75 days..

2009-03-22T22:04:00.004+08:00

haha.. today is sunday.. u take time out to meet mi.. i really very happy and touch.. i noe u really care lar.. 1 more day added.. lol.. 75 days le.. i will keep on added to it.. hope we can do it.. i bought a shirt for my bro as his birthday present.. he told mi he do like it.. lucky.. i very scared he don like it.. i will do anything to put a smile on my family face.. haha.. I LOVE MY FAMILY!! i wish my bro all the best.. good luck in everything.. love ya.. lol..

74 days..

2009-03-21T21:07:00.002+08:00

today rotting at home again.. thought u can meet mi.. i noe u are tired lar.. yeah.. 74 days le.. still counting.. wad i'm i gonna do today?? sian.. this cannot carry on.. its so no life lar.. haiz.. i miss u so much lar.. wad to do.. u also cannot meet.. haha.. i think i'm gonna sleep early today.. but donno can sleep anot.. i don think can.. lol.. BERNARD LEE MING KAI!! u are so lifeless.. pls do something tat a human being should do lar.. must stop must stop.. haha..

73 days..

2009-03-20T18:42:00.002+08:00

haha.. 73 days le.. wad u doing?? today friday.. another boring friday.. sian.. i decided not to remind u abt all the things le.. u will noe wad i mean lar.. i think if u don remember abt it also no point reminding u.. haiz.. do u really care?? i really hope so.. if u don i also don blame u.. coz u will always be my baby dardar.. love ya.. muackz..

72 days..

2009-03-19T22:26:00.003+08:00

today is the 72th days we noe each other.. i really hope tat the number of days will be more and more.. I LOVE U!! i went running just now.. so tired.. i will slim down for u.. i noe i can do it.. no matter how hard it will be.. remember wad u owe mi hor.. don forget.. haha.. going to sleep le.. tired after a run.. shack.. haha.. good night.. love ya.. muackz.. hugs.. i will always be there for u..

wad can i do to make u love mi??

2009-03-12T13:49:00.004+08:00

use to wake up every morning to check mi phone and there.. ur msg is always the 1st to wish mi good morning.. 4 days ago it stops.. i don receive ur morning msg anymore.. sob sob.. the 1st day i'm thinking maybe u forgot or something.. but when the days gets longer.. i noe its not u forget anymore.. is u don wan to.. there is nth i can do ab it lar.. but i'm just very sad.. after tat day i don even dare to msg u 1st..if i do sometime u don reply.. than when i msg u the second time.. i scared u will find it disturbing or find mi "fan".. even msn i don msg u 1st.. i scared u don like it.. maybe u getting sick and tired of mi le.. i donno.. there is alot of things i don even dare to do.. can someone teach mi wad to do?? wad can i do to make u love mi?? BERNARD LEE MING KAI!! when can u stop being hurt by ppl??

wad had happen to us??

2009-03-11T00:23:00.002+08:00

after tat day.. everythings change.. no more morning msg.. no more msg be u go sleep.. u don even wan to call mi.. wad had happen.. things are getting worst than better.. how?? can anyone help mi?? i really donno wad to do.. even reply to ur msg i have to think very long wad to send.. i scared u will be unhappy to see some msg u don like.. i very scared u are sad or even angry if i send something wrong.. i really donno wad to do??

we are not like the past anymore..

2009-03-10T11:11:00.004+08:00

things had really change for us.. u nv msg mi in the morning when u wake up.. or msn mi when u online.. but i don even see u online.. its ok lar.. i will not msg u or msn u de... i will wait for u to msg mi or msn mi.. maybe u don wan mi to disturb u.. i noe u are avoiding mi.. if u really don wan this u can just tell mi.. u don have to be like this.. i will just go away quietly.. y is all this happening?? issit wad i have done?? must be lar.. i noe its my fault.. very sorry.. will we ever be like the past again?? i really wish we can lar.. i really don wan us to be like this.. don worry u will hurt mi.. coz the Bernard Lee Ming Kai last time is DEAD!! i won't feel any painfulness de.. love ya.. muackz..

are we really meant to be together??

2009-03-07T14:44:00.003+08:00

alone at home.. today suppose to be meeting u.. but u are not feeling well.. so not meeting le.. hope u get better soon.. rest well.. take care.. and remember to eat ur medicine hor.. i started to think are we really meant to be together?? there will always be things cork up when we suppose to meet.. i always feel there is somethings between us.. but i donno wad is it.. maybe is ur ex?? maybe is time?? or maybe we are just not meant for each other.. u say u will fix my heart for mi.. but i don see u doing tat.. its ok lar.. u don have to fix it for mi.. just let it be broken ba.. my heart is broken.. but i donno when it will bleed.. i really don wan it to bleed.. i hope it will just stay broken.. when it start to bleed i donno i can take it anot?? i don wan u to see my weak side.. i will always be strong in front of u.. love ya.. muackz.. hugs..

该爱着你该离开你..还是继续逃避..

2009-03-06T15:58:00.002+08:00

when i read the thing u did for ur ex.. i really very touch.. i'm thinking in my mind do u remember the things abt us?? or its all gone from ur mind.. i really envy him lar.. he is so lucky.. got someone tat treat him so good and love him so much.. not like mi.. how i wish i can have someone tat treat and love mi so much.. i really donno wad to do lar.. u two have been through so much.. i'm like so extra.. ppl say loving someone is hurtful.. being loved is fortunate.. its really true.. i'm so hurt now.. haiz.. wad to do.. its my life.. i just have to admit to fate.. i noe i will not be so lucky de.. WAKE UP BERNARD LEE MING KAI!!! u are not going to be so lucky de..

haiz.. i'm so confused..

2009-03-05T00:16:00.003+08:00

everytime when we meet i can see tat other someone in ur heart.. i donno wad to do.. u said tat u do love mi.. but i really don feel the love.. maybe is i'm thinking too much.. but u also say tat u still like ur ex.. i really have no confidence in myself.. i don think i'm good enough for u.. i don wan to leave u but i also cannot make myself not think abt the problem.. wad should i do?? u say u need time.. how long?? 1 year, 2 years or 10 years?? its not the matter of time.. its tat i noe it will not happen.. u tell mi don think so much.. but not thinking doesn't mean the problem will be gone.. it will still be there.. it will not disappear by itself.. hope u will understand.. but i will still give u all the time u need.. love ya.. muackzz..

1 more hour left..!!

2009-03-01T22:50:00.004+08:00

1 more hr and u will be back.. i'm so excited.. will u call mi or msg mi ?? i did not hear from u today.. but its ok.. hope to see u soon.. u got take care of my phone anot?? haha.. i'm so tired today.. yesterday u not around than nth to do.. so after my performance i went back sleep until today morning.. haha.. i noe u will say i pig again.. the performance turn out good.. my fren love it.. i also enjoy it alot.. too bad u not there.. when i'm singing "i'm yours".. i am thinking of u lor.. actually is all the song i sing is for u.. i was thinking of u all the time.. i feel like crying when i'm singing "i'm yours" lar.. happy song become sad song.. haha.. ok lar.. talk until here.. see u soon.. love ya.. muackz..

the 5th day.. 26 feb 2009..

2009-02-26T21:26:00.004+08:00

haha.. still got 2 more days.. yeah.. yesterday i went zouk clubbing.. its been 2 years plus since i went le.. it was fun.. i went wif leslie and some of my frens lor.. i enjoy myself lor.. wad u doing.? got miss mi anot.? u better don anyhow hor.. i miss u so much lor.. i tml still got ippt lor.. ok lar.. i will just stop here.. love ya.. muackz..

the 4th day.. 25 feb 2009..

2009-02-25T21:18:00.003+08:00

its been the 4th day le.. more than half way le.. i'm so happy.. haha.. 3 more days to go.. i on mc today.. so tired.. not feeling well so nv go back.. i really forward for u to be back.. are u having fun there.? i tml also mc leh.. i got 2 days mc.. haha.. nth much to say today.. do u noe how much i love u.. and how i wish u will love mi as much.. u are so so important to mi.. i donno how i'm gonna live without u.. u take care.. love ya.. muackz..

the 3rd day.. 24 feb 2009..

2009-02-24T21:53:00.002+08:00

its the 3rd day lo.. still got 4 more days.. i receive ur msg today.. i'm so happy lar.. it means tat u still remember mi.. haha..we lean how to strip and assemble riffle today.. all this things i have learn in tekong le.. so boring.. we also learn abt IFC.. i nearly fell asleep in class.. haha.. i noe u will say i pig.. lol.. wa.. its hard to get through this week lar.. without u.. faster come back hor dardar.. i miss u alot.. i hope next time it will be u and mi going oversea together.. looking forward to tat.. haha.. see u soon.. love ya.. muackz..

the 2nd day.. 23 feb 2009..

2009-02-23T22:04:00.003+08:00

hai.. it only the 2nd day.. 5 more days to go.. do u noe tat i miss u alot.. i'm thinking tat do u miss mi anot..? i hope u do.. today is the 1st day of mi reservice.. so sian.. we learn all the things abt riffle again.. very tiring lar.. and so boring lor.. but lucky we get to book out early.. wad are u doing now..? issit fun over there..? faster come back lar dardar.. i really wan to see u soon.. now i know how much i love u.. i have nv love someone this much b4.. u take care of urself.. enjoy hor.. be careful hor.. don anyhow over there.. haha.. love ya.. muackz..

the 1st day.. 22th feb 2009..

2009-02-22T22:31:00.003+08:00

its the 1st day.. wad are u doing now..? i'm going for my reservice tml le.. so sian.. i did nth but just thinking of u.. u should be there by now le lar.. having fun anot?? must be lar.. i cannot stop thinking of u.. wad to do..? how am i going to survive all this days.. haha.. very fast u will be back le.. hope tat day will come fast.. take care.. muackz.. love ya..

now i know where i stand le..

2009-02-21T16:43:00.006+08:00

when u tell mi abt the shirt tat u wan to buy... its really make mi very jealous... i donno wad to say... but i know how important he is in ur heart le... and i also noe where do i stand... u can do until like u don care... but it will not change the fact tat i'm in the corner... not even in ur heart... i can feel it... i noe u are trying not to hurt my feelings... but no use the... the problem still gonna be there...u donno how i feel... but i'm trying very hard not to get in too deep le... i'm really trying very hard... i donno how long i can carry on... i gonna break down soon... but i will always love u... and u will always be my baby dardar... muacks...

wad can i do now???

2009-02-11T00:25:00.003+08:00

hai... so sad now... i really donno wad can i do now lar... i noe the person in ur heart noe is not mi... but i cannot do anything to change it... if u really going back to him just go... don have to care abt how i feel... i will just leave in silence... but i will still love u no matter wad... u don have to feel bad if u hurt mi... i will be hurt but seeing two person who is in love wif each other to be together is the right thing to do... if one day u really got back together wif him... pls do not come and an wei wo... its will make it worst lar... just let mi sad in one corner can le... thanks... love u always... muackz...

don worry abt mi...

2009-01-30T00:08:00.003+08:00

i noe its hard for u to forget abt ur ex... but i wan u to be happy... its ok tat u hurt mi... i'm use to it... i don mind if u really choose him... i noe u still like him and he still like u too... ppl who is in love wif should be together... i will treasure the time we spent together before u make ur decision... i will respect ur decision... all i wan is u to be happy... tat will be good enough for mi... u don have to blame urself abt ur decision... love cannot be force... i will alwats be by ur side no matter wad... if i tell u i'm not sad... tats a lie... i will be sad... but its ok de... i can take it... its easier saying it than doing it... but i will do it... love ya... muackzzz...

i'm very sorry...

2009-01-25T03:34:00.003+08:00

i'm really very sorry for wad i did today... and i promise u tat it will nv happen again... pls don be angry... i noe u don wan mi to be sad tats y u lied to mi... i noe de... its just i really do love u... and i don wan to lose u too... it makes my heart break when i see u like tat... pls forgive mi... muackzzz...

u owe mi 3 hrs!!!

2009-01-23T01:36:00.003+08:00

i'm still sad before i meet u... but when u make mi wait for 3 long hrs... its not sad anymore... its pissoff... i was very angry... i had nv waited for anyone for such a long time lar... i'm waiting like a dumbass where u go for shopping and buy burberry... u good... remember u still owe mi 3 hrs... i noe u love mi... i can feel it when we meet... sorry abt everything... i'm strong and i can do wadever i wan... its because u love mi... muackzzz...

wad can i do?

2009-01-22T01:15:00.003+08:00

it really hurts mi when everytime we meet u are telling mi things abt ur ex... i really donno wad to do..? i really don wish to say tat... it also hurts mi lar... but i can feel the love u have for ur ex... its not weak... its very very strong... i cannot be so selfish to get in ur way... i noe there is chance for both of u to get back together... i hate to see two person tat likes each other to be separated... i'm not tat "wei da"... i do love u... nothings gonna change my love for u... but seeing u happy is more important than how i feel... don care abt how i feel... although i will be hurt... but its ok de... as long as u are happy... its good enough for mi... even to get hurt.. its worth it... i'm not good at words... but all this is from my heart... i truly says no one has ever been so good to mi like u do... and i have nv love anyone like i love u... i really do... I LOVE U!!! muackzz...

Wad am i going to do without u???

2009-01-19T20:54:00.002+08:00

i really had a great time being wif u on sat.. when u told mi u going to taiwan.. i felt very sad.. i noe its only a few days.. but it seems like very long.. haha.. lol.. wad to do? if u have to go u have to go.. but i hope u will have a great time there.. remember to buy something back for mi hor.. i will wait for u to come back.. hope to see u soon.. love u.. muackzzz..

A night wif u...

2009-01-14T23:00:00.003+08:00

i really had a good night spending wif u... i enjoyed myself... even though there are times when we don say anything... but by just looking at u i'm very happy le... when u tells mi things abt ur ex... i donno y i had a sudden jealous running inside mi... maybe i really likes u alot... or maybe it just comes like tat... but i really hope i can replace the person in ur heart now... i know it will take time... but i can wait... i be right here waiting...

Everything i do.. I do it for U..

2009-01-14T01:25:00.003+08:00

i'm really happy to know u... its like the best gift tat god have ever gave to mi... i've nv felt so blessed and lucky before... no matter wad happen i will always be there for u... no one had ever treat mi so good like u do... no one can remember the things abt mi so well... only u... i really tresure all the time we spent together... hope tat we can last forever... love u always... muackzzz...

Lifeless day!!!

2008-12-28T05:18:00.004+08:00

everything seem so lifeless without u... i've been play mahjong for 4 days leh... wad have happen to mi... when i saw u tat day i really wan to give u a tight hug... but i scared when i do so i cannot let go... its hard for mi to let go... i don get to see u much... its been 4 months le.. i nv get the chance to meet u... u are always meeting ur fren... i noe i'm not important at all... but at least let mi meet u once more... i really hope tat after 2 years i can see u again... and we can be together... but tat is my side of story... maybe u don ever wan to be wif mi... its ok... if i noe u are happy tat's enough for mi le... i don ask for much... i just wan u to be happy...

Life is meaningless without u!!!

2008-12-04T07:14:00.003+08:00

wad is happening to me? keeping thinking abt u where i noe there will not be any future with the both of us... i should really give up on everything... leave the pass behind and just move on... there is nth i can do anymore... u don call or sms mi anymore... that is so sad... people can and go... but i really wish u will be the one that will stay forever... keep wishing and dreaming Bernard Lee Ming Kai... that will nv gonna happen...

Still thinking of u!!!

2008-11-13T04:57:00.003+08:00

Y am i still thinking of u... i told myself not to think anymore... but when i'm alone i will still think of u... i really hate myself for doing this... everything is like so wrong without u... i feel like i have nothing without u... how r u doing??? i really hope i can get through this as soon as possible... its like hell going through this everyday...

a day wif no life...

2008-10-12T02:50:00.002+08:00

today was so sian... no life lor... rotting at home all the way... i was waiting for ur call... but there is none... sms u also no reply... u already got another person in ur mind le... y must i still squeeze in and pressure u... this gonna have to stop... i don wan u to be stress over this thing... take care...

Today is the day!!!

2008-10-11T03:43:00.003+08:00

its the 20th day le... and today is the day... but y i don have tat kind of excited feeling anymore??? i really hope i can meet u today... i really pray... but i don think it will come true... no more hope le... but i will still be the same as b4... no matter wad i will still be waiting... hope u will love mi back...

The 19th day without you...

2008-10-10T00:09:00.002+08:00

its the 19th day le... later have to go for my re service briefing... so sian... y must have re service... no choice leh... haha... at last u call mi... i'm so happy... its going to be sat soon... so excited to see u... i really hope can meet u on sat... but i don think it will happen... its fine... knowing tat u are fine its good enough for mi le... i love u... all the best...

The 18th day without you...

2008-10-09T04:31:00.002+08:00

its the 18th day le... and its the 3rd day i don hear from u le... no news nth... wad happen to u??? can u pls tell mi... i really wan to know how u feel... even if u don like mi or u find mi irritating... u can just tell mi... i don mind... i will feel even better... but i got an answer inside mi le... but donno if its the same as urs??? i hope its not...

The 17th day without you...

2008-10-08T07:32:00.002+08:00

its been the 17th day le... not very busy today... but i'm so tired... i also got no mood... donno y leh... maybe its because u nv call or msg mi... y??? wad happen??? are u busy or u just don wan to reply... i really donno wad is on ur mind... i really wish to know... its so sad not to hear from u... even a simple good night msg i will be happy le... but don have... nvm lar... i think i know how u feel... all the best...

The 16th day without you...

2008-10-07T04:15:00.003+08:00

its the 16th day le... still got 3 more days to my re service... so sian... u nv reply mi today... i think u should be busy ba... or u might be asleep le... so i nv call u... but i miss u so much... i really hope i can see u this saturday... even if its for awhile... lunch or something maybe... but i think u won't have the time ba... but its ok... wadever makes u happy i will be happy le... take care...

The 15th day without you...

2008-10-06T03:54:00.003+08:00

its the 15th day le... still the same... i have to msg u 1st... than u will start to msg mi... i just can't don msg u... y...? i'm really very tired... donno wad to do... "bernard... stop being so irritating le... wake up... pls try not to msg so much... maybe its very irritating..." take very good care of urself... all the best in everything u do...

The 14th day without you...

2008-10-05T04:53:00.003+08:00

its the 14th day le... one more week to see u again... i'm so happy... today was really boring... i still got 5 more days to my re service briefing... i hate it so much... u send mi a msg today... i'm so happy when i recieve it... coz its the 1st time u auto msg mi... i hope tat means u are thinking of mi... i am thinking of u every single day... hope u will be the same... take care of urself... love ya...

The 13th day without you...

2008-10-04T03:37:00.003+08:00

its the 13th day le... today was real busy... its all full... busy until like crazy... i felt so happy and relieve after telling u all tat and how i feel... i don mind wad is the outcome... i just wan to let u know abt everything... and i also told myself not to call or msg u from now on... i don wan u to feel tat i'm very irritating... i also don wan to add on burden to the stress u having now... even though we know each other for a short time... but its seems like we have know each other for a long time... also i wan to thank u for all the good memory u have given to mi... its will always in my heart and mind...

The 12th day without you...

2008-10-03T04:16:00.003+08:00

its the 12th day le... 7 more to the briefing for my re service... so sian... today was not tat busy... but i was very tired... the feeling tat u are "bo chap" is getting stronger and stronger... i hope tat my feeling is wrong... but if its true i will not blame u... i will blame myself... maybe i'm not treating u better enough... or maybe i'm too irritating to u... ppl always say love is blind... but i don think so... u will see more clearly when u are really in love... its only tat u hope tat u are blind so tat thing can get better... but its will always not get better...

The 11th day without you...

2008-10-02T04:13:00.003+08:00

its been the 11th day le... its so boring today... 4 person looking after 1 room... so stupid... its so empty today... i'm really missing u... i miss ur hug... day by day just pass like tat... but i just got a kind of very emo feeling... u seems so "bo chap" when u talk to mi on the phone... maybe u are just busy...? maybe u are tired...? or u really "bo chap"... am i thinking too much??? wad can i do to make u love mi??? wad can i do to make u care??? pls tell mi...